Change

Francois de la Rochefoucauld once said that "the only thing constant in life is change."how true.So, it's funny how today kept repeating itself. Never in my entire life have I gone through a mutual breakup and have it become so positive and healthy. But, I just wanna say that I love my friends, even though everyone of them said something along the lines of ..."damn, jenny you look like shit, what's wrong?"Apparently I felt like shit, and looked the part too. I guess when I look bad...I REALLY look BAD. It's going to be pretty wierd, and rough so please bare with me. I'm still having a hard time ridding my self of that "you dumbass you just made the biggest mistake of your life" feeling. So if you say something to me, and I start crying randomly, don't think you did anything wrong. You probably just reminded me of something that I miss.I think the second hardest part about this whole thing, is telling people over and over and over...and over...........and over again. And getting the same shock and awe.. and pity reactions over and over again. I just wanna make something very clear, there's nothing to feel sorry about. It was the happiest 2 years, 4 months and 7 days of my life. I've realized what I need, I grew, and in the end I found my soul mate. So, what could anyone be sorry for? I know what I want in the future, and I know what I want now. I know who and what kind of person I want to spend the rest of my life with. And I realize my limitations in this present reality.But , I did some post truamatic break up therapy with my madre. And splurged on jeans and sweaters at AE. Love that store. Bought a new suit for mock trial and kick ass kicks to match. Oh and I donated my hair to Locks of Love.Change can be good. Hard, rough, painful, heartbreaking, but very good.

The "Perks" of Dating a Starbucks Barista.

(courtesy of topher) yeah it's dirty but it cracked me up. I mean...we're just that good at pumping mocha. jealous much?1. Because we're used to whipped cream.2. We make everything extra hot.3. We know how to keep you up in the morning.4. We won't fall asleep afterwards.5. We thank and worship you over and over, even if we know you don't deserve it!6. No body grinds like we do.7. The thing's we make are soooo delicious.8. You ALWAYS find Mocha, Whip cream, caramel or some other deleciousness on some part of our body.9. Give you enough creame so you won't complain.10. Because we always gladly do it agian if you arnt satisfied and thank you with a smile.11. Because we stay fresh for an hour and only need 4 minutes to re-brew.12. We will always give you stuff that you LOVE to slurp and swallow.13. We Give "Legendary" Service.14. We wipe our steam wands with a towl when we finish steaming your pitcher.15. Because our aprons aren't just useful in the store, but also in the bedroom; easy to take off, clean up small spills/stains, provide easy access to...everything!

Crack Babies

So I really do love, how pulling all nighters just comes so natural to me these days. Then again it really makes it a whole lost easier to have a starbucks in your backyard.Anywhoooo today was awesome! Work went by excruciatingly slow. lol. But the people are still bomb so it was still fun. Went to a bbq for mock trial, and just chilled and got to know some really cool people on the team. This team, this year, is going to be off the hook. Then went to hookah and chilled with the homies. Bryant and B are always tight. And got to see my favorite fatty of all time chris. I love that kid like a baby loves her crack.Anyways. Life has been crazy busy. I never know when I have time to hang out anymore, so it's just going to have to be a spur of the moment kind of thing like tonight from now on. Even though I'm only taking 5 classes, I'm involved in a bunch of extra curricullar org. and clubs at school, so if I'm not in class, I'm at work, and if I'm not at work I'm in a meeting, and if I'm not in a meeting I'm at an event and if I'm not at an event I'm at work... you get it.And at the end of the day, I'm still happy cause it finally feels like I'm getting something accomplished. Ok well the whole point of thise stupid thing is to in someway bid adieu to the extent of my myspacing. Must cut down because I'm wasting to much time on this thing. So, farewell my babies.

Comfortably Numb

If you've ever watched the movie Someone Like You you'll know what I mean."There are few things sadder in life than watching the distance from the one you love, expand and grow until there is nothing left but space and silence."It perfectly describes the feeling I have towards some friends of mine. Sad but inevitable. But I'm happy that I've reconnected with old friends I had lost touch with.The new school year has finally arrived. I apologize if I'm hard to reach. Please have patience.I'm doing all this because I've got a secret hope that it'll pay off in the end. It's selfish but only human.Life has gotten crazy.Like it's going a million miles a minuteIt's as I left it.

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Superfluous

hmm...It really doesn't help that my parents have no faith in me but that's alright, I can understand why. I've done alot of things that merit no trust, but I feel as if they're making me out to be some sort of psychotic mass murderer. Just taking it one step over the edge of cruelty; exaggerating my wrongdoings. But lately, I've found myself not caring anymore, and I don't know how to interpret this. Am I growing cold, and rebelious, or is this the real me, just maturing? I feel drawn to neither of the aforementioned, but simultaneously feel as though this is what was meant to be.I know what I can handle, and I have no intention of backing down from any of my endevours. I don't feel the need to compromise anything I'm passionate for in order pacify my parents needs for security.

Random Crap

I like people who feel comfortable in their own skin.I don't like people who wear make-up just to go swimming. it cakes up. and you end up looking redllightdistrictesqueI like people who have pictures with meaning and memory.I like people who take care of friends when they black out.I like people who laugh a lot and dance a lot and sing alot when they're drunk and moreso when they're sober.I don't like these girls on myspace who look like their 12 and feel the need to post raunchy pictures of themselves with the classic "OMG OOPS! I LOOK LIKE A WHORE " facial expression. You all know what I'm talking about. *my beach pictures are tasteful and isn't the reflection of me in the mirror with my camera and my tits and ass hangin out*I like people with good teeth, and overall good hygene.I hate it when people have yellow teeth and plaque. (BIG PET PEEVE) and like to take pictures showing they're poorly conditioned teeth.I hate it when people take pictures of themselves with a mirror and their hand helf up high with the camera flash, looking at a corner then photoshoping every imperfection pretnding like they're artistic and au naturale with "no makeup on" . I just do. cliche girls. get over you damn selves!I hate split ends.I hate restrictions.I like starbucks and my coworkers.I love the occasional hookah.I think oystershots is what the devil's shit would taste like.I want to fly away to an exotic land and study. and live.I want a lot of material things. And I will get them but I won't loose my sense of self and diginity.I will be independent.