countin down was never easy

Days and 32 Minutes..Something is seriously wrong with me... I'm going so effing mental!! Dammit...I've been having these really really huge ass mood swings latley. I hate it. Sometimes I just breakdown and cry in the middle of doing something. Especially when he has to leave my house. Gawd, I'm so emo. But not in that weird tight pants, fruity hair, tyler cravens sorta way. The way Greg always complains about. It's the " my life is over because he's moving away, and all those smart pretty girls are going to hunt him down like carniverous beasts" sorta emo. I don't know. I'm just scared I guess. I know I shouldn't be worried about anything because it's Los and he wonderfuly perfect in every way and he loves me, and I love him with every breath in my body. But, who wouldn't be scared of change? I for one... hate change, with a forceful passion I truly possess the darkest hatred for change. It just tears me apart from the inside out.