I Wish You Love

I'm in love with the movie Prime. Changed my outlook on relationships.It feels so good to finally feel and say that I am ok. Finally.Here's the song to the last scene of the movie.I WISH YOU LOVE- RACHAEL YAMAGATAI wish you bluebirds in the springTo give your heart a song to singAnd then a kiss, but more than thisI wish you loveAnd in July a lemonadeTo cool you in some leafy gladeI wish you healthAnd more than wealthI wish you loveMy breaking heart and I agreeThat you and I could never beSo with my bestMy very bestI set you freeI wish you shelter from the stormA cozy fire to keep you warmBut most of all when snowflakes fallI wish you loveMy breaking heart and I agreeThat you and I could never beSo with my bestMy very bestI set you freeI wish you shelter from the stormA cozy fire to keep you warmBut most of all when snowflakes fallI wish you loveBut most of all when snowflakes fallI wish you love.

Insomnia Is Killing Me & No one else is Awake

So I had long deal of bitchin that I wrote down but decided to delete it cause myspace just isn't the place for it.I guess you could say I'm a little frustrated, and a little lonely. It's hard to keep things bottled up inside and it's even more painful when there's no body to talk to about it.Insomnia is killing me...I lie awake just thinking. Trying to fall asleep I look outside and I'm just reminded of how we use to spend the nights together just looking at the midnight sky. But everything's different now. And everything reminds me of you.yeah no one said it would be easy.but why does it have to be this hard?I waited all day...and got nothing.tell me.do i even cross your mind?maybe this song is a little bit more precise in whatever the hell i'm trying to say... gimmie a break it's 3:30 am"tell her that you love hertell her that you need her,tell her that you want her to stay,reassure with a kissshe may never know unless youshow her what your feelingtell her your believineven though it's hard to saycause she know your thinkin of herso open up and tell her that youlove her."

Who Cares If We're Apart For The Big Day It's the Small Ones That Made Me Fall In Love With You

I'm diggin the christmas spirit right now..just wish someone was here to share it with. Some nights can be so lonely ya know? But I guess I just got to tough it through. I don't know. I just miss him a lot...everyday. And it's times like these that hurt the most...nobody said it would be easy.who cares if we're apart for the big days it's the small ones that made mefallinlovewith you.For all of you who have that certain someone in your life that's able to be with you when you need them...don't take it for granted.i wrapped you a presentplaced it under the treeaddressed it to youloved always by me

In A Sentimental Mood

the category should be "romance and relationships...or lack thereof." "I want someone to crush on me like I'm crushing on them"- sheri is so true!It's kinda funny. Someone has already met my standard, and exceeded it. But because that relationship didn't work out doesn't mean I'll lower my standards. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's rare for me to meet someone that meets those standards, and when I do...I dunno...it kinda sucks cause they don't feel the same way. So there it is. Thank you Jamie for telling me how it is. I just wish you would have told me sooner before I went on this crushing tizzy. I didn't want to hear it, but at the same time I needed to hear it, no matter how much it hurt. Yea it put me in a funk for the rest of the night, but at least I know the answer to my questions. As much as I keep telling myself and everyone that I'm going to just forget about it. It's hard. And I don't know how to help myself. I havn't had to for the past 3 years, so It's just a little bit hard to start up again. I just miss that feeling. I want someone to chase me instead. To get excited to see, or talk to me. It's the holidays, and as pathetic as this sounds. I'm feeling a bit lonely. I miss all the little things...holding hands with someone, those warm kisses in the chilly winter night, having someone make me soup when I'm in bed with the flu..(or hung over,lol),taking sunday afternoon naps, sitting at home in pjs watching tv and movies on Christamas morning. Or someone just to be with. All that. I miss. All the little things.And don't give me the, oh you go for jerks, and forget about the good guys crap. Nobody has made any effort to make me aware of their feelings so yes I have every right to say what I'm saying. I dated a nice guy for 2 and half years. So I shit you not when I say, I know what I'm looking for in a guy.I know Edgar is right when he calls me a "faghag". But I am ok with that. I love all my friends, gay or straight. I just don't want to be only that for the rest of my life. He said something that kinda blew my mind the other day actually...something to the extent of "if only there were as many hot straight men that liked you instead of all these gay men." i shit you not. he is right. wtf mate?I wish I knew how to quit you