Pinot Noir

Sooooo pretty jazzymcshnazzzy day I must say.It's feels so much better to be feeling better ya dig? That nothing can really get you down. No matter how many rude customers you get, or how many things may try to go wrong, or how many tests you have, or how many things you need to get done, your spirit is still soaring. What a deal. It does help when you're tweaking on coffee so that's always a plus. I think I'm destined for arthritis in the future? HIGH FIVE! Just got cancer. Just now. I mean right this second. Oh but wait...still smiling :D Man I've been saying hella corny and crazy things today. Exhibit A. But that's alrighty because I'm just so excited. For what? I don't know.I know it's still September but I'm already getting into the Christmas spirit. It's my favorite season. It's sad that for the first time in 4 years I'll be spending my Christmas alone. Then again it's even sadder that I'm already thinking of Christmas when neither Thanksgiving or Halloween have come. (2 equally delicious..errr... I mean MEANINGFUL days). Well not technically alone. But without a boyfriend. I think the only thing that I'm really stuggling with is seeing all these couples on campus. Kissing, hugging, holding hands, smiling, being genuinely happy. Makes me want to vomit in my mouth. lol No, not exactly. Just slit my writs. HAHA I kid I kid. joke. icebreaker. lol. Well, no I guess I'm just feeling a little nostalgic at times. I'm not used to instablity.But it's such an awesome thing to have such kick ass friends in your life. So I've just got to give a shout out to a few because...damn...I'm so luck to have them. Jealous?Carlos: My Soulmate. No matter how many challenges face us, no matter what happens in our relationship we always have that solid foundation of friendship that can't ever be shaken. I could go on and on and on...and on about how much you mean to me, and how much you've changed me but you already know that. I would not be me, if you hadn't come into my life. You came into my life teaching me things (yes i still remember the day we met :D ), and continue to teach me about life and love and truth. Thank you.Eugene: My rock. Had it not been for you, I would probably have dropped out of college by now. LOL. Thank you for always lending an ear, a shoulder, and being truthful, and never judgemental. (Well to me that is) lol.Chris: You're the fat that makes my LOVEhandles. lol. What would I do without you. Well I'd probably be skinny. lol. Through all the stupid shit we go through in life I'm glad to have you by my side the entire way. You're that person that's right next beside me saying "Damn that was fucking awesome." I wouldn't have it any other way.Prescila: HIGH FIVE. gave you cancer. I'm pretty sure without you I'd probably have no morals. Thanks for keeping me grounded, and keeping me sane.JustinoMichaelRyanCurtis: aka Jennifer's boo. Damn. Crazy mother effer. But you are settling down now with your love and I will always admire you for that.Candi: Thanks for the sex talk. I'm pretty sure without you I'd be going to heaven, but hey I'll take hell with you anyday. lol.SBUX FAMILY: Seriously. Some of you are the sweetest people I have ever met in my entire life. It brightens my day working with you guys. Sheri: I will miss you like whoa when you leave to SF. You've been like a big sis to me. Always looking out for me, and giving me advice. Matt: Like my big bro. Telling me about boys and such. Shelby: Seriously, We've shared a bed together how close can we really get? lol. JENNIFERCURTIS: you married like my craziest friend. You get props soley for that yo. AndrewfreakinOlsen: ok. you're like the annoying little brother who's bigger than me. but then again. you're still chill and you still listen when I complain about my silly boy problems. Kristi: my goodness, what would I do without you. I'd probably be arrested or pregnant by now. lol. Thank you for all the motherly advice. CHRISTINA!!!: what's up motherfucker?!?!?!!!! seriously there's nothing I can say but you're the s to the hit.I'm sure there's more people I need to thank. But there is wine to drink...

A Life Inspired

It's true what they say about life...that when it hits rock bottom there's only one way to go...Well, I'll be honest with the world for once, I've hit the bottom. Somehow I managed to plow through life's penultimate core and hit the very dense world of tortourous emotional grandeur. Some may call this a relapse in my time of growth, and some may call me a cry baby, but I see it more of as a very rude, and very due awakening.It's funny but the last thing I have to say is that my phone is broken after all those times I dropped it. It was finally forced to bite back and say fuck this. So email is the best way to get a hold of me. Call me a narsascist, a romantic, even an egoist. I am all those things. But I'm changing for the better. I'm changing finally. I lied before, but this is the truth. It's time to follow up on my goals. No more procrastination. This year is going to be unbelieveable. You'll see.

Change

Francois de la Rochefoucauld once said that "the only thing constant in life is change."how true.So, it's funny how today kept repeating itself. Never in my entire life have I gone through a mutual breakup and have it become so positive and healthy. But, I just wanna say that I love my friends, even though everyone of them said something along the lines of ..."damn, jenny you look like shit, what's wrong?"Apparently I felt like shit, and looked the part too. I guess when I look bad...I REALLY look BAD. It's going to be pretty wierd, and rough so please bare with me. I'm still having a hard time ridding my self of that "you dumbass you just made the biggest mistake of your life" feeling. So if you say something to me, and I start crying randomly, don't think you did anything wrong. You probably just reminded me of something that I miss.I think the second hardest part about this whole thing, is telling people over and over and over...and over...........and over again. And getting the same shock and awe.. and pity reactions over and over again. I just wanna make something very clear, there's nothing to feel sorry about. It was the happiest 2 years, 4 months and 7 days of my life. I've realized what I need, I grew, and in the end I found my soul mate. So, what could anyone be sorry for? I know what I want in the future, and I know what I want now. I know who and what kind of person I want to spend the rest of my life with. And I realize my limitations in this present reality.But , I did some post truamatic break up therapy with my madre. And splurged on jeans and sweaters at AE. Love that store. Bought a new suit for mock trial and kick ass kicks to match. Oh and I donated my hair to Locks of Love.Change can be good. Hard, rough, painful, heartbreaking, but very good.

The "Perks" of Dating a Starbucks Barista.

(courtesy of topher) yeah it's dirty but it cracked me up. I mean...we're just that good at pumping mocha. jealous much?1. Because we're used to whipped cream.2. We make everything extra hot.3. We know how to keep you up in the morning.4. We won't fall asleep afterwards.5. We thank and worship you over and over, even if we know you don't deserve it!6. No body grinds like we do.7. The thing's we make are soooo delicious.8. You ALWAYS find Mocha, Whip cream, caramel or some other deleciousness on some part of our body.9. Give you enough creame so you won't complain.10. Because we always gladly do it agian if you arnt satisfied and thank you with a smile.11. Because we stay fresh for an hour and only need 4 minutes to re-brew.12. We will always give you stuff that you LOVE to slurp and swallow.13. We Give "Legendary" Service.14. We wipe our steam wands with a towl when we finish steaming your pitcher.15. Because our aprons aren't just useful in the store, but also in the bedroom; easy to take off, clean up small spills/stains, provide easy access to...everything!

Crack Babies

So I really do love, how pulling all nighters just comes so natural to me these days. Then again it really makes it a whole lost easier to have a starbucks in your backyard.Anywhoooo today was awesome! Work went by excruciatingly slow. lol. But the people are still bomb so it was still fun. Went to a bbq for mock trial, and just chilled and got to know some really cool people on the team. This team, this year, is going to be off the hook. Then went to hookah and chilled with the homies. Bryant and B are always tight. And got to see my favorite fatty of all time chris. I love that kid like a baby loves her crack.Anyways. Life has been crazy busy. I never know when I have time to hang out anymore, so it's just going to have to be a spur of the moment kind of thing like tonight from now on. Even though I'm only taking 5 classes, I'm involved in a bunch of extra curricullar org. and clubs at school, so if I'm not in class, I'm at work, and if I'm not at work I'm in a meeting, and if I'm not in a meeting I'm at an event and if I'm not at an event I'm at work... you get it.And at the end of the day, I'm still happy cause it finally feels like I'm getting something accomplished. Ok well the whole point of thise stupid thing is to in someway bid adieu to the extent of my myspacing. Must cut down because I'm wasting to much time on this thing. So, farewell my babies.