It's cold tonight. It feels very autumny.
I've been debating on whether or not to share this with raf. Should I email him the permission link to read my blog? I feel that we are losing touch more and more each day. Makes me sad, that it was something that filled me with happiness me, and now has almost no presence in my life.
Part of me wants me to let him read it, because in some wierd way I feel like he'd understand it. And part of me doesn't want to burn that bridge. I don't want that connection to just disipate.
The other part of me is afraid that he'll reject my offer, as if he doesn't even care. Rejection. hmm...how to deal with this fear....
Reject me once, shame on you.
Reject me tiwice, shame on me.
The semester is rolling up quickly. It's gaining speed. which reminds me I must finish writing!
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